It seems like many of my awh-ha moments are on my yoga mat. I went to Core Power Yoga today for a C2 class. I’m honestly not sure what pose I was in when our teacher told us to “take a deep breath and enjoy the moment” but I picture myself in half pigeon. For all of you non-yogi’s, this is a hip opening pose that is easy to get in but difficult to stay in. Basically, it’s a mentally challenging moment when your mind starts to wonder and you really want to move. I don’t think that our teacher intended this short statement to be a life lesson but as I tried to hold the pose, I started thinking how this advice applies to being a mom. As you can probably tell from my previous posts, I’m a type A personality. My mind often races, I have strong beliefs, I’m a planner, and I like things to be in order. Brooks challenges all of this. I can plan all I want but this child is strong-willed and has his own agenda. It’s definitely challenging to me that I can’t control things the same way I used to. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a control freak. I’m actually pretty laid back about most things but I have a lot of self control and I often anticipate how things are going to go prior to them happening. This gives me comfort. So, when I plan to take Brooks on a nice walk and he decides to scream at the top of his lungs, it is a challenging moment for me.
As we quickly approach Brooks’s first birthday, I realize what everyone tells me is the truth. These babies really do grow up fast and time flies by. I know that he’s only small for such a short time. I love that baby to death and I find so much joy in raising him. I find him so funny and life is honestly so much more full-filling. With that being said, we have plenty of challenging times when he is melting down or throwing a temper tantrum. (Yes, he already throws himself on the floor kicking and screaming when he’s mad) It’s times like these that I need to remember to take a deep breath. While it’s no fun when this happens, it helps to realize that it’s only temporary. Most likely he’ll be laughing the next minute and even if he’s not, it’s not the end of the world. I hope that by being aware of this I can learn to relax a bit. Maybe I’ll even get to the point where I can laugh.